In The Trenches

I'm so busy, and I haven't even gone anywhere...



That is the best way I can wrap my mind around it to describe it to you.



To have been the sole organizer, traffic control operator, planner, do all at home mom for almost two decades now that, well it became me, and defines me...and IS me, and last night



as Tatum got off of work and drove in her car and hung out all evening at her boyfriends....



and Mike worked all day, and then in his car drove to an open Mike nite and played guitar...



and Jake went and skated at the roller rink with friends after I dropped off and then picked up again..



and Matt had Swim Lesson at the Y and Summer and I took and retrieved while she played in the preschool area...



I had to have tabs on everyone...my cell phone was busy...my deadlines and agenda full...but of nothing really...



Am I rambling or does this make any sense...There are many of them, and they have all branched off, and I am still responsible for all but yet, they are all doing their own thing now...and I am still.....here.



I have to figure this one out. Why do I feel so overwhelmed but yet at the end of the day, can't show what **I** have done.